Hello Readers!
Well this will be my first ever post about me trying to get pregnant. Maybe by typing out my sad journey of trying to conceive will make me feel a little better.
Well, I tried to get pregnant for almost 2 years. It was really frustrating, as I kept questioning myself why it's so hard for me to conceive. Sometimes, I just cried myself to sleep. And when I finally did conceived in August 2012, I was overjoyed! My hubby shed tears of joy too! We had checkups at NUH. We did a screening test for Chromosomal Abnormalities at 13 weeks. Everything went well. The pain lasted for merely few minutes. Unfortunately, at 20 weeks I had to abort the pregnancy.
A few days before I miscarriage, I had some blood spotting but I did not panic or have any negative thoughts about it. As I did not feel any cramps or pains, I ignored it completely. On the day of my checkup, the bleeding was slightly more than before. At that point of time I started to worry. When it was my turn to see the doctor, she revealed my Chromosomal Abnormalities results and the baby was normal, and that I'm expecting a baby boy. I remembered my husband immediately said, ALHAMDULILLAH. (Praise to God). I was relieved. Then, I informed the doctor than I'm having light spotting and just awhile ago, a slightly more bleeding. So, she went to check my unborn baby's heartbeat. It took her quite some time to find the heartbeat. She kept scanning my tummy round and round. She then did an ultrasound scan and again round and round my tummy. She just told me to wait on the bed and she will be back. My husband was told to follow her to another room. After they left, I asked the assistant nurse on duty if there's anything wrong. She told me that, the doctor could not find the baby's heartbeat. I was devastated. I prayed that my baby boy will be fine.
My husband came back, his eyes were red and he just smiled at me. I asked what's wrong, and he just kept mum. I could tell that something was amiss. The doctor came back and she apologized to me. She told me that I have to abort the pregnancy. The reason was, my baby's condition is deteriorating because the umbilical cord is tangled around his neck. What surprised me more was that I was fully dilated. I was devastated! My husband started crying and I was super duper sad because I could not deliver a baby he have always want!
I gave birth to my precious baby boy on 26 Dec. My family, relatives & friends visited me and gave me moral support. The next day, I was discharged. I didn't go for D&C as there were no 'leftovers' inside of me. Doctor said it was clean and I'm fit to go back home. That's about it. A very unfortunate day. :(
