Hi Readers,
I have decided to change my checkups to KKH instead of NUH. I heard from friends that KKH doctors are better. Well, after much consideration, my husband & I decides to go KKH.
Today was our first consultation, we waited 1.5 hours for our turn. The doctor briefly introduced herself. She then questioned me if I've been pregnant before and etc etc. I couldn't remember her name!
She then checked my vagina using a speculum. She inserted her fingers to check for idk what. But she said all looks normal. She want to retrieve reports from NUH but some reports she couldn't thus I have to go for another uterus scanning 2 January. Did a blood test today and the results will be together with the scanning next year.
I really hope KKH could do something about me. Really hoping that I could conceive by end of 2014. :(
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Monday, November 25, 2013
EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
Hi Readers!
Gosh! I'm very emotional!
I don't know why but I always have this jealous feelings whenever I found out that a friend, relative or even a stranger is pregnant. Like why it's so easy for others to get pregnant, and why it's so difficult for me. I feel so lousy! Sigh...
Even the doctors at NUH were not very concern about my condition. Every checkup they will say that I'm still very young and that I still have more years to conceive and bla bla bla.
Sometimes, I will cry myself to sleep. At times, I have mood swings and I will throw tantrums towards my husband. :(
I don't know what to do already. I did use the ovulation test kit but it's always negative. We had intercourse 3 times a week. I eat healthy foods and exercise 4 times a week. What else? :(
Gosh! I'm very emotional!
I don't know why but I always have this jealous feelings whenever I found out that a friend, relative or even a stranger is pregnant. Like why it's so easy for others to get pregnant, and why it's so difficult for me. I feel so lousy! Sigh...
Even the doctors at NUH were not very concern about my condition. Every checkup they will say that I'm still very young and that I still have more years to conceive and bla bla bla.
Sometimes, I will cry myself to sleep. At times, I have mood swings and I will throw tantrums towards my husband. :(
I don't know what to do already. I did use the ovulation test kit but it's always negative. We had intercourse 3 times a week. I eat healthy foods and exercise 4 times a week. What else? :(
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
NOTHING'S CHANGE
Hi Readers!
Well, nothing's change! My menses are still irregular. I'm very distraught! I really want to get pregnant again! My husband kept saying that it's ok and he's willing to wait. But I know deep inside him, he too wants to have his own kids soon. :(
Readers, actually me & my husband are 15 years apart. He's 38 & I'm 23. I know I may be young and people would usually say, I'm still young what... But my concern is my husband. I mean he's reaching 40 in 2 years time. I don't want him to be 40++ and I still could not conceive yet.
Anyways, I did a Uterus Scanning last week to find if there's anything wrong internally. The results was normal. Nothing serious or major. And we had a PAP Smear test too. Results was also normal.
Doctor concluded that it might be hormones changes. She told me that it might be the weight I've put on. Maybe just maybe. I was 65kg and now i'm 75kg. Whopping 10kg increases! She told me to loose weight and eat more healthy foods & veges.
I'm trying my very best to eat healthy and exercise regular. -.-
Well, nothing's change! My menses are still irregular. I'm very distraught! I really want to get pregnant again! My husband kept saying that it's ok and he's willing to wait. But I know deep inside him, he too wants to have his own kids soon. :(
Readers, actually me & my husband are 15 years apart. He's 38 & I'm 23. I know I may be young and people would usually say, I'm still young what... But my concern is my husband. I mean he's reaching 40 in 2 years time. I don't want him to be 40++ and I still could not conceive yet.
Anyways, I did a Uterus Scanning last week to find if there's anything wrong internally. The results was normal. Nothing serious or major. And we had a PAP Smear test too. Results was also normal.
Doctor concluded that it might be hormones changes. She told me that it might be the weight I've put on. Maybe just maybe. I was 65kg and now i'm 75kg. Whopping 10kg increases! She told me to loose weight and eat more healthy foods & veges.
I'm trying my very best to eat healthy and exercise regular. -.-
Friday, July 19, 2013
IRREGULAR MENSES
Hi Readers!
I'm still unable to conceive to date. :(
My menses are giving me so much pressure! Bleeding for more than 14 days. Crazy!
I also did a pregnancy test to check if I was pregnant. But it was negative.
It's been going on like this since early April 2013. Doctor gave me Norethisterone to stop the bleeding completely. It must be taken 1 pill, twice a day for 3 weeks and off pills for one week. And repeat if for 3 months. Doctor said, after 3 months of my menses 'might' return back to normal.
But it did not! It's repeating again and it's very annoying! So the doctor increases the amount to 2 pills, twice a day for 3 weeks and off pills for one week and repeat it for 3 months. AGAIN!?!
Well, I'll have to see if it works this time round. *cross fingers*
I'm still unable to conceive to date. :(
My menses are giving me so much pressure! Bleeding for more than 14 days. Crazy!
I also did a pregnancy test to check if I was pregnant. But it was negative.
It's been going on like this since early April 2013. Doctor gave me Norethisterone to stop the bleeding completely. It must be taken 1 pill, twice a day for 3 weeks and off pills for one week. And repeat if for 3 months. Doctor said, after 3 months of my menses 'might' return back to normal.
But it did not! It's repeating again and it's very annoying! So the doctor increases the amount to 2 pills, twice a day for 3 weeks and off pills for one week and repeat it for 3 months. AGAIN!?!
Well, I'll have to see if it works this time round. *cross fingers*
Sunday, March 24, 2013
3 MONTHS
Hello Readers!
3 months have passed since that very unfortunate day.
Went back to work with a heavy heart. I know I must not think about it anymore but I just can't. It's a painful experience. You'll never know how it feels like loosing a child, especially if it's your first baby.
Anyway, during these 3 month, hubby & I have to prevent from sexual intercourse. Doctor advise to rest my body for 3 months. After that, I can try again. I know it must be hard from hubby. But for my health sake, he's willing to sacrifice.
I'm going for a holiday in Philippine in May. In dire need of a vacation! I deserved a good quality time with my husband. And I hope & pray that I can conceive during the holidays! ;)
3 months have passed since that very unfortunate day.
Went back to work with a heavy heart. I know I must not think about it anymore but I just can't. It's a painful experience. You'll never know how it feels like loosing a child, especially if it's your first baby.
Anyway, during these 3 month, hubby & I have to prevent from sexual intercourse. Doctor advise to rest my body for 3 months. After that, I can try again. I know it must be hard from hubby. But for my health sake, he's willing to sacrifice.
I'm going for a holiday in Philippine in May. In dire need of a vacation! I deserved a good quality time with my husband. And I hope & pray that I can conceive during the holidays! ;)
Saturday, January 26, 2013
UPSET
Hello Readers!
Well this will be my first ever post about me trying to get pregnant. Maybe by typing out my sad journey of trying to conceive will make me feel a little better.
Well, I tried to get pregnant for almost 2 years. It was really frustrating, as I kept questioning myself why it's so hard for me to conceive. Sometimes, I just cried myself to sleep. And when I finally did conceived in August 2012, I was overjoyed! My hubby shed tears of joy too! We had checkups at NUH. We did a screening test for Chromosomal Abnormalities at 13 weeks. Everything went well. The pain lasted for merely few minutes. Unfortunately, at 20 weeks I had to abort the pregnancy.
A few days before I miscarriage, I had some blood spotting but I did not panic or have any negative thoughts about it. As I did not feel any cramps or pains, I ignored it completely. On the day of my checkup, the bleeding was slightly more than before. At that point of time I started to worry. When it was my turn to see the doctor, she revealed my Chromosomal Abnormalities results and the baby was normal, and that I'm expecting a baby boy. I remembered my husband immediately said, ALHAMDULILLAH. (Praise to God). I was relieved. Then, I informed the doctor than I'm having light spotting and just awhile ago, a slightly more bleeding. So, she went to check my unborn baby's heartbeat. It took her quite some time to find the heartbeat. She kept scanning my tummy round and round. She then did an ultrasound scan and again round and round my tummy. She just told me to wait on the bed and she will be back. My husband was told to follow her to another room. After they left, I asked the assistant nurse on duty if there's anything wrong. She told me that, the doctor could not find the baby's heartbeat. I was devastated. I prayed that my baby boy will be fine.
My husband came back, his eyes were red and he just smiled at me. I asked what's wrong, and he just kept mum. I could tell that something was amiss. The doctor came back and she apologized to me. She told me that I have to abort the pregnancy. The reason was, my baby's condition is deteriorating because the umbilical cord is tangled around his neck. What surprised me more was that I was fully dilated. I was devastated! My husband started crying and I was super duper sad because I could not deliver a baby he have always want!
I gave birth to my precious baby boy on 26 Dec. My family, relatives & friends visited me and gave me moral support. The next day, I was discharged. I didn't go for D&C as there were no 'leftovers' inside of me. Doctor said it was clean and I'm fit to go back home. That's about it. A very unfortunate day. :(
Well this will be my first ever post about me trying to get pregnant. Maybe by typing out my sad journey of trying to conceive will make me feel a little better.
Well, I tried to get pregnant for almost 2 years. It was really frustrating, as I kept questioning myself why it's so hard for me to conceive. Sometimes, I just cried myself to sleep. And when I finally did conceived in August 2012, I was overjoyed! My hubby shed tears of joy too! We had checkups at NUH. We did a screening test for Chromosomal Abnormalities at 13 weeks. Everything went well. The pain lasted for merely few minutes. Unfortunately, at 20 weeks I had to abort the pregnancy.
A few days before I miscarriage, I had some blood spotting but I did not panic or have any negative thoughts about it. As I did not feel any cramps or pains, I ignored it completely. On the day of my checkup, the bleeding was slightly more than before. At that point of time I started to worry. When it was my turn to see the doctor, she revealed my Chromosomal Abnormalities results and the baby was normal, and that I'm expecting a baby boy. I remembered my husband immediately said, ALHAMDULILLAH. (Praise to God). I was relieved. Then, I informed the doctor than I'm having light spotting and just awhile ago, a slightly more bleeding. So, she went to check my unborn baby's heartbeat. It took her quite some time to find the heartbeat. She kept scanning my tummy round and round. She then did an ultrasound scan and again round and round my tummy. She just told me to wait on the bed and she will be back. My husband was told to follow her to another room. After they left, I asked the assistant nurse on duty if there's anything wrong. She told me that, the doctor could not find the baby's heartbeat. I was devastated. I prayed that my baby boy will be fine.
My husband came back, his eyes were red and he just smiled at me. I asked what's wrong, and he just kept mum. I could tell that something was amiss. The doctor came back and she apologized to me. She told me that I have to abort the pregnancy. The reason was, my baby's condition is deteriorating because the umbilical cord is tangled around his neck. What surprised me more was that I was fully dilated. I was devastated! My husband started crying and I was super duper sad because I could not deliver a baby he have always want!
I gave birth to my precious baby boy on 26 Dec. My family, relatives & friends visited me and gave me moral support. The next day, I was discharged. I didn't go for D&C as there were no 'leftovers' inside of me. Doctor said it was clean and I'm fit to go back home. That's about it. A very unfortunate day. :(
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